Destruction

I am overwhelmed.

I feel like my whole world is burning, and the roof is about to fall on my head, bringing down everything with it. There are just too many things, and too many windows and too many doors, but somehow no escape route. I feel trapped in a spiral of unending thoughts and circumstances that never ever lead anywhere. I am dangerously close to the S word. I am fighting it with all my might, but it feels like the only logical conclusion to my existence.

Hope

I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Fangirling Over Korean Vlogs

The newest thing that I’ve decided I want to be is a Korean homemaker.

Since ethnicities aren’t interchangeable and I have no plans of shifting out there, perhaps I should elaborate.

Staying Sane, Staying Light

Every time I am done with a large deadline, I feel an enormous wave of calm wash over me, as if all my worries were over for the rest of my life. Of course, I am well aware that they are not, but somehow my brain shuts down negativity and allows myself to indulge in social media without any shade of guilt-tripping. I am riding on one such a small high at the moment.

Sustenance

Today is marked by light.

I’ve often wondered about the denial one sees in addicts. I’ve seen it in my father who’d always proclaim his ability to stop drinking if he wished to; how it wasn’t something that controlled him.